I am a planner by nature. I LOVE lists and calendars. I live by schedules. I have to have plans set in stone, and I like to know what is going to happen long before it happens. I hate being spontaneous...in fact, not having control of what is going on freaks me out and literally makes me ill to my stomach. This is why job hunting is so very difficult for me.
I will be finishing my Ph.D. in November, and after countless applications submitted, I still have yet to find a job. This leaves approximately 1-2 months before I have to find something else. Which means (you guessed it)...the unknown. My worst nightmare. I have absolutely no control over this situation whatsoever.
As I sat in church on Sunday morning, I was reminded that God is in control. Not me. I live my life so that I can control everything down to the tiny, little details, but what I've realized is that I don't often allow room for God to "plan" in my life. So instead of freaking out and stressing over the unknown, I am going to let God take care of me. Even if this means that I won't have a job at the end of the year, I am comforted by the fact that God WILL provide for me and my family.
It's hard to wait on God. But He ALWAYS shows up, right on time. He will provide, Jess! I'm certain of that!
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